Today we went to the Aiken SC fifteen miles from the Georgia border to see a reenactment of the Aiken battle during the civil war. It was an awe inspiring thing to experience. We saw artifacts—mostly guns, some clothes--from that period. A guy had a few confederate dollars remade so he could show us, and he had cut one of them into half and then eighths so we could see how they used to give change. Silver was silver, the value of the coin was always in your hand. There was a demonstration of the cannon being fired and felt as if it reverberated through my entire body. Then the reenactment started. The guns exploded, the cannons boomed, leaving behind a haze in the air from all the smoke. The whole idea of the civil war is more real to me than it ever was before. Mostly because as I sat there listening to men playing the role of all the major players in the confederate army I realized that most of the people sitting there watching with me were cheering for the confederate army to win. Okay granted it was put on by the Son's of the Confederate Veterans, but I was a little shocked that it was all so one sided. A woman sitting next to me asked me quite honestly, “Do we win this, or do the Yankees?”
To which I could only respond, “It was the civil war—could anyone really win?”
Nothing was said about Abraham Lincoln or any of the major players on the Northern side. At one point the crowd was taught the rebel yell, and how people responded was interesting. Some were enthusiastic; others were simply timid trying to appease the man playing the role of General Robert E Lee, others in the crowd looked around in stunned silence.
Watching the two sides fight was sad for me. Most people were enjoying the fight and were enthusiastic about the weapons--granted this was mainly a boy thing, and I am not putting an age limit on it. But for me, I cried. Men lining up courageously less than twenty-five feet from each other and shooting into the lines across from them bravely. It wasn’t like a coward wearing a suicide bomb blowing people up. These soldiers met eye to eye and fought valiantly for what they believed in. I know it was just acting, but when men fell I remembered the men and women, who over the course of our country gave, and still give their lives in her defense. It was tragic to me that the same forces who had fought so diligently together for their freedom, only a few generations later would be fighting each other. And what for? Why was the civil war fought? I like to think of the civil war as ironing out the kinks of a young country—we can all relate that at times the process of strengthening is often painful. The cost is often high. It started with the factories verses the raw materials—foreign trade, and who should govern the state or the federal government? Should states be able to secede from the union if they don’t agree with the national government? All of these things needed to be resolve for the United States to become the great nation it is today.
Do you notice I haven’t brought up slavery? Do you notice how it is danced around, vaguely implied? This is my experience in the South. People around here do not talk directly about race or the part it played in not only the history of this country, but in their everyday lives now. Like it or not it we are different, different ethnicity's exist, but since I have lived in South Carolina, I have noticed the strangest anomaly, racial issues are the elephant in the corner, everyone knows it’s there, but nobody talks about it. Maybe the true segregation of the South in this day and age is a new kind of fear--not a fear of oppression, or bigotry, it is the fear of offense. Since I have lived in the first state to secede from the union in the civil war, native southern folk of all different ethnicity's, whisper to me—literally whisper-- how it must be so different here, how we must really notice a difference in the culture here. Always dancing around the issue at hand-- not wanting to give offense and certainly not wanting to be seen as the oppressor or the oppressed, this strange sort of segregation occurs, and it is based simply on the strange fear of offending.
So can I tell you what the civil war was really fought over in the south? No not really, nobody would say. I can say in a state where everywhere we go, the two dominant ethnicity's always have a healthy representation, today at Aiken SC--with the rebel flag floating through the air, among the sea of thousands of white faces, I only saw one African American. You may make your own suppositions. I on the other hand am going to go try and explain to my seven year old son, who never noticed segregation until today, how we are all created in God’s image--no matter what tint the skin of that image happens to be. And God bless America, that I have the freedom to do that.
To which I could only respond, “It was the civil war—could anyone really win?”
Nothing was said about Abraham Lincoln or any of the major players on the Northern side. At one point the crowd was taught the rebel yell, and how people responded was interesting. Some were enthusiastic; others were simply timid trying to appease the man playing the role of General Robert E Lee, others in the crowd looked around in stunned silence.
Watching the two sides fight was sad for me. Most people were enjoying the fight and were enthusiastic about the weapons--granted this was mainly a boy thing, and I am not putting an age limit on it. But for me, I cried. Men lining up courageously less than twenty-five feet from each other and shooting into the lines across from them bravely. It wasn’t like a coward wearing a suicide bomb blowing people up. These soldiers met eye to eye and fought valiantly for what they believed in. I know it was just acting, but when men fell I remembered the men and women, who over the course of our country gave, and still give their lives in her defense. It was tragic to me that the same forces who had fought so diligently together for their freedom, only a few generations later would be fighting each other. And what for? Why was the civil war fought? I like to think of the civil war as ironing out the kinks of a young country—we can all relate that at times the process of strengthening is often painful. The cost is often high. It started with the factories verses the raw materials—foreign trade, and who should govern the state or the federal government? Should states be able to secede from the union if they don’t agree with the national government? All of these things needed to be resolve for the United States to become the great nation it is today.
Do you notice I haven’t brought up slavery? Do you notice how it is danced around, vaguely implied? This is my experience in the South. People around here do not talk directly about race or the part it played in not only the history of this country, but in their everyday lives now. Like it or not it we are different, different ethnicity's exist, but since I have lived in South Carolina, I have noticed the strangest anomaly, racial issues are the elephant in the corner, everyone knows it’s there, but nobody talks about it. Maybe the true segregation of the South in this day and age is a new kind of fear--not a fear of oppression, or bigotry, it is the fear of offense. Since I have lived in the first state to secede from the union in the civil war, native southern folk of all different ethnicity's, whisper to me—literally whisper-- how it must be so different here, how we must really notice a difference in the culture here. Always dancing around the issue at hand-- not wanting to give offense and certainly not wanting to be seen as the oppressor or the oppressed, this strange sort of segregation occurs, and it is based simply on the strange fear of offending.
So can I tell you what the civil war was really fought over in the south? No not really, nobody would say. I can say in a state where everywhere we go, the two dominant ethnicity's always have a healthy representation, today at Aiken SC--with the rebel flag floating through the air, among the sea of thousands of white faces, I only saw one African American. You may make your own suppositions. I on the other hand am going to go try and explain to my seven year old son, who never noticed segregation until today, how we are all created in God’s image--no matter what tint the skin of that image happens to be. And God bless America, that I have the freedom to do that.
4 comments:
You sure are a wonderful writer! You're right, I think people are so concerned about offending others. I never really noticed a racial difference until the election this last year. I think now that we have a black president those concerns about offending others is amplified. If you say anything negative about Obama, you worry that people are going to think you're racist. And I HATE that! I hate that America has to be so judgemental and live so much in the past. I understand the importance of not forgetting the past, but why can't we move on?
People back home always ask what it's like in The South and I hate that they think everyone is backwards red-necks wearing overalls with one strap undone, chewing on a piece of straw (particularly my brother and mother). I love the rich culture here, and I love to be in the midst of history while I'm learning about it. The more "Southern" folk I get to know and the more ETV specials on SC I watch the more I've come to realize that reenactments, the confederate flags, the tributes are all a factor of their heritage, it's not that they want to bring slavery back, it's not that they are opressive, it's their rich roots, their ancestors that died, their city that was burned. In my opinion, people here still have a great hatred for Sherman (especially those who try to do family history)--it's started to wear off on me and I often find myself associating bad with the confederates and with Sherman (which is all mixed up). But because of that, I find myself "rooting" for the Confederates a lot :)
holy crap that looked like it was alot of fun... they never do cool things like that around Utah.
What a fun fieldtrip. Wish we could have been with you all.
Cute pic. of Mom and Kaleb.
Thanks for sharing.
Sure luv you all.
Hey, Tavi, your b-day is coming up pretty fast. What do you want for the big 5th birthday???
Hope you are all well by now.
Keep the blog working, I like to hear (read)what you are up to.
Thanks for the phone calls 2.
luvya
Hey you. I didn't know you had a blog, it was so great to see pics of you guys. Moving to CA, found it on the map, when can we come to see you? Road trip here we come :)
Jessi :)
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